happy4once wrote:
I know you probably can't believe what Bob wrote right now - but getting hooked on AF days is what did it for me. There really is something about your wash-out days when you get to them. You have one...then you go to two and it all clicks.
I couldn't wait to share the news. Just over mid-Week 20. I just had my first "voluntary" AF day in years. (By this I mean I don't count in the hospital with a morphine drip). I did not plan it. I had two heavy drinking days, because Teddy Kennedy died (as I said elsewhere there's a distant connection there), then it was my birthday. It didn't get entirely out of hand; about 8 for each of two days over several hours. I actually felt fine today. I decided today to get back on track with starting drinking later in the day. I'm trying to aim for starting until 6 instead of 4 or 5 (or, in the not-too-distant past, noon). Today I was busy and it was 6 pm and I hadn't taken my nal. I decided to put it off a little while longer and now here I am.
I was a little antsy for an hour or two but began to feel mellow, content, not remotely wanting anything to drink. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I feel great now.
Again, I do not believe this happened. I literally never felt this day would come, despite all I've learned about TSM.