Atta girl. Remember to cut the old man some slack on the MIL drama. Most of us (men) are pretty emotionally deficient compared to you girls and we naturally tend to run from heavy drama. Leaving you, of course, to deal with everything. But we appreciate when you do that. Mostly.
Steve.

you're way too tough to let this be a setback, Maggie! move on. we're with ya! zontar

Thanks Steve and Zontar - and yes I am back up on the horse !! Thanks for the support guys !! And Steve there is SO much I could say about men being emotionally deficient - but I am not going to start -

Hugs, Maggie x

This is the hard part, the bit where it becomes interesting. It's what I call really learning to live life, learning about yourself and your responses.

I thought it would get easier - not harder UKB ! I thought I had the hard part ! I don't want to have more hard parts! LOL

Hugs, Maggie x

It gets easier not to have to drink.

I am definitely somewhere in this ! Stupid thing to say - but I feel as if I am in the middle of something really big ! AF days are easy - but then I will think about having a drink - and seem to be back to how things were. I just need to get my head around the fact that the AL does not do anything for me and so do not drink it - but in adversity, my reptilian brain runs for it ! I drank twice this week - one day I had one drink, the other day I had 4 - that was the day everything was going wrong. I suppose as I keep preaching to everyone else - I just need to have patience and faith - my head needs to catch up with my brain which isn't a good way of explaining it but the best I can do at 5.00 a.m. !!

Have a great weekend everyone,

Hugs, Maggie x

You have a good weekend too, Maggie. I don't think you could have dreamed six months ago that would have a week with only 6 drinks total and five days AF. I am IMPRESSED!! Hugs from Newlife

I really liked the words I have emboldened. A big realisation in there, and you should be proud of yourself.

Old habits die hard, it's strange that turn to sensation - like turning to do something then having to remember that actually, there's nothing there.

Newlife - no, I would never have thought I would be where I am, 6 months ago! I am still not quite there - but definitely getting there !

Thanks UKB - as usual - I love your posts and answers! Yes, old habits die hard - and today was a very hard day - and as usual I have turned to AL - which is sad as I was hoping for another AF day - but I am not going silly with it - I am on my 2nd and am hoping this will be it ! Life keeps throwing stuff up at me - which I know everyone has that and I need to learn how to deal with it without that 'oh gosh, I need a drink' mentality ! Oh - not sure how often you check your e-mail but I did e-mail you btw .....

This week has not been as good as I had hoped - but never mind - there is always next week !!

Enjoy the rest of the weekend everyone,

hugs, Maggie x