Week 61, 21 units, 3 af. Went out 4 nights with a 5, 5, 9 and 2. I absolutely blew it one day this week and lost myself in a day of mindless drinking. Something I haven't done in a long time and don't plan on doing anytime soon. I put myself in a old trigger situation and fell back hard onto a old behavior pattern. TSM did what I needed, but it's apparent that I need to take some responsibility and manage my life. My new relationship is going well and it feels good to be with her and share time. I am learning to communicate and deal with real life situations. Something new to me because I was fooling myself earlier and favoring my love affair with alcohol. With well over a year of posting, I believe I am continually making progress and I am happy. My journaling has been positive for me, but I'm not certain if it is of any relevance to you. What I'm learning now is how to live life, my life without alcohol being at the centerpiece. In signing out for the week, the only advice I can offer is follow the GR and make plans early on for your new life. Transition your behavioral habits as early as you can in favor of your new goals. You can all do it, peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks:
1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af................51-20, 4 af...............61-21, 3 af
2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af...................52-26, 3 af
3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af.....................43-16, 4 af...................53-23, 3 af
4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af.....................44-21, 3 af...................54-25, 3 af
5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af.....................45-24, 3 af...................55-29. 2 af
6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af.....................46-22, 3 af...................56-28,2 af
7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af.....................47-16, 4 af...................57-30, 1 af
8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af.....................48-17, 4 af...................58-23, 2 af
9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af.....................49-22, 3 af...................59- 23, 2 af
10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af......................50-19, 4 af...................60-20, 2 af

Plantpro, you can always be counted on to post every Thursday! good for you!! Glad the relationship is going well and you are where you want to be. Thanks for continuing to share. Peace back to you, Newlife

Plantpro

What I'm hearing is that you haven't quite got the knack of drinking less into your life yet?So quite understandable, new things need practice and even over 4 years down the line I am still learning.

Don't know if it helps you to know that it took me two years of 'cure' for things to start cementing themselves in my life - but when they do they become the new ingrained ways.

UKB - I agree that I hear that Plantpro is still drinking quite a bit but that I think he feels more in control of it now? I think he feels okay with it - and maybe, what happened with you will also happen with him in time ...

hugs, Maggie

I was trying to be too much of a smart-arse and wasn't thinking.

Hope you are ok pp, and I look forward to your next Thursday check-in

LOL ......

Week 62, 17 units, 3 af. Went out 4 nights and had a 6, 6, 3 and 2 beer nights. The first 6 was consumed while dancing with friends and took place over 5 hours. The other 6 was consumed with my new gf and spread out over 6 hours. We were at my beach house on a perfect sunny day and it was nice to just sit and enjoy her company as she drank wine. I believe TSM and the nal are still working. My thoughts and behaviors are changing. It maybe due to the fact that I intentionally want to bond with her as opposed to bonding with the ghost of old buzzed memories. For me and maybe others, it just takes more time until the reasoning mind just drops the notion of pressing the lever and finally moves on. Who knows, I don't want to get ahead of myself and will just let it play out and journal my behavior. I am real happy that the old me is gone. It is leaving plenty of time and space for a new me to emerge. I like what I am seeing and my momentum in the right direction seems to be strengthening. To all you on the path, keep at it and good odds it will do the same for you. In signing out, it is all good. I want to wish you all the power to continue what you have started. No one knows when it will kick in and work for you, so never give up. UKB, don't be hard on yourself. I look up to you and have thought many times of how similar we are. It just took us more time and I think it is good we let others know that it is a possibility it may take longer. I am right behind you and appreciate you. I want to ty for your input, and as always, you were right on with your last comment to me. PEACE...Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks:
1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af................51-20, 4 af...............61-21, 3 af
2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af...................52-26, 3 af...............62-17, 3 af
3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af.....................43-16, 4 af...................53-23, 3 af
4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af.....................44-21, 3 af...................54-25, 3 af
5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af.....................45-24, 3 af...................55-29. 2 af
6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af.....................46-22, 3 af...................56-28,2 af
7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af.....................47-16, 4 af...................57-30, 1 af
8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af.....................48-17, 4 af...................58-23, 2 af
9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af.....................49-22, 3 af...................59- 23, 2 af
10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af......................50-19, 4 af...................60-20, 2 af

Thanks for the update - I do think that you are comfortable where you are, whereas I am not. I am way behind you though and will just keep on keeping on ..... thanks for updating us,

Hugs, Maggie x

Week 63-18 units, 2 af. Ended up drinking 5 nights with 5,4,4,2 and 3 beer nights. Did not make it out dancing this week but choose to hang at the beach house and enjoy the nice weather for 2 nights and then 3 nights in my inland home. There is no doubt I feel so much better following nights that are af. It has been real fun to go out, socialize, meet people and develop friends. But I am beginning to see the necessity of creating alone time. I have accomplished so much since starting TSM, it may be time to re-evaluate my direction. The scale veries but sometimes it says I have dropped 60 lbs from the height of my alcoholism a short 3 years ago. 30 lbs since I started posting here. That is with no intentional forced effort. Just a natural consequence of less alcohol and a mind that isn't focused on the destructive lifestyle I used to live. My houses are so much better and organized, I love them. Again, just a natural consequence of freed up energy that I used to waste on drinking. I retired early but am preparing to launch a new career. I like the way I feel when I work and am productive. I believe it will be good for me. No doubt TSM saved me. I still drink but that compulsive relationship that I used to live has changed. I must now learn to take care of myself and I will call it learning to love myself from here on out. In signing out, a big welcome to all you new guys. You can all do it and your lifes will change as mine did. To you guys in the drenches, total respect for your continuing efforts. It will kick in. Let's all learn together to love ourselves and each other. Peace.......Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .......................................... Wks:
1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af.....................41-26.5, 2 af................51-20, 4 af...............61-21, 3 af
2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af.....................42-17, 4 af...................52-26, 3 af..............62-17, 3 af
3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af.....................43-16, 4 af...................53-23, 3 af...............63-18-2 af
4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af.....................44-21, 3 af...................54-25, 3 af
5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af.....................45-24, 3 af...................55-29. 2 af
6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4 af.....................46-22, 3 af...................56-28,2 af
7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af.....................47-16, 4 af...................57-30, 1 af
8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af....................38-30, 2 af.....................48-17, 4 af...................58-23, 2 af
9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af..................39-16, 4 af.....................49-22, 3 af...................59- 23, 2 af
10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af....................40-12, 5 af......................50-19, 4 af...................60-20, 2 af

Congratz!