Well, if I keep going at the rate I've been at this week, I'm going to come close to my pre-Nal units...and that's very discouraging. I'm not sure why the sudden increase. Certainly there is little happening in my life that might spark this, although I have been working very hard and been quite tired in the evenings. Going to the pub and chit-chatting with friends seems to help with that, but while I'm there I'm pounding back the beers (which I don't even have a taste for these days...so its the alcohol I'm after, clearly).
Seeing how well some people are doing here with the abstinence route, I'm thinking that I might just try that road as well, and then take my own advice and not beat myself up if I have the odd night or two of drinking now and then.....
I've been lurking in the "Sober Recovery" forum lately, which is HUGE, and it's mostly for people who are not drinking at all, there supporting one another. Most seem to be "White-knuckling" it, however, experiencing Dr. Sinclairs "Deprivation Effect". So there must be a happy balance in between here somewhere. I know that I need to stay away from the pub, that would for certain help with my levels, but being home alone at night is difficult for me to enjoy....I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place....

What a horrible beast and burden this drink and drinking life is.....
I hope everybody is in a better place than me today. All the best to you.