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I drink at nights too, about the same number of units as Numbers (well 8, or more depending on how you count, two beers and a bottle of wine, plus alpha if I have something extra on hand, as I did last night).
I have abstained, for a few days, in the past few years, but generally I want that beer and wine at the end of the day. It is a sort of ritual, excuse to moan, moan to excuse myself, regressive to babydom, whine, wine, blah, blotto type of thing, I think.
Today I forgot an important appointment. I am not sure why, but I think it may have been partly due to brain fog caused by the alcohol the night before. Very bad. I felt very sorry.
So I got on the Net and Googled "drug that makes you feel bad if you drink" (antabuse, I guess) but for unknown reasons I ended up with Nal and then, The Sinclair Method. Very exciting. Very reasonable. I am going to find a doctor next week.
I drink partly (though this largely is my excuses talking!) to go to sleep, so Number's post where he says that the alcohol made him sleep after a lesser quantity, sound better and better. If alcohol should work as a (better) sleeping pill, for those occasions when I am genuinely unable to sleep (as opposed to just the "I have to because I can't sleep" excuse) then that is fine.
I worry at little about the cost. I wonder if it will be on insurance. But, suddenly I am think that there is a way out. There is hope! Well, I always thought I would just quit, but didn't and this sound a lot more hopeful. Thanks everyone.
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