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I have straggled with alcohol for years. I posted my story few months ago. Went on Sinclair method March last year. I was struggling for months i thought it is not working for me. But gradually i stopped having black weekends while still drinking every evening. I have not even noticed when but the cravings started to be manageable, on a hang over day I could say no in the morning. I thought it was just me but now looking back it wasn't. I was always taking a pill an hour or 30 min before I hade a drink. I did not see much improvement in the amount that made me happy. But gradually I could say to myself, I will not make an extra trip to liquor store for more. I still struggled but it started to be manageable. By the end of January I started to have alcohol free evenings one here one there. Than I went a week alcohol free. Than 2 weeks. Ten it was 6 weeks. Than I had an evening with vodka and next morning was hang over but no craving, contrary absolutely no desire. Than an evening came, home alone kids out of the house, husband too. Perfect setting but no,no desire. Than conference and hotel setting, in a past i would drink in the evening in my room, this time not even a thought. So now, day after day I am testing myself would drink be an option for tonight. No!!! I feel this is it. I hope this is it.!!! I will post in e few weeks what to let you know how am I doing. For now as I look back it definitely was not me, not the AA meetings, after last meeting in January i had my last weekend sleep. No meetings since than ( I was not regular visitor anyway) and all of a sudden I am here. At the same time that I have started Sinclair method my friend in another country after rehab started Sinclair method too. She felt like me it is not helping, she has stopped taking Revia I did not. She is steel drinking maybe less than before but every day and occasionally few days in the hands of the demons. I hope my story will encourage someone who is loosing hope.! Good luck ERK.
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